5 days in, and not 5 things to note.

I have returned to NOVA, and have been here for a number of days. Since my arrival, I have done next to nothing. And the amount of nothing I willing want to consume is nearing it's limit. Tomorrow, I must speak to a manager at Safeway, see if there is a part time position for me. If there is, there shall be much rejoicing (Yay.) Else, I'll look around here again, and while it is the exact opposite of what I want to happen, since when have what I wanted mattered?

Still no official word from Mason (Grrr...) and it would likely take sometime to get an official word from Safeway. Makes me rather glad that I left on good terms last summer. Something to do tomorrow.

On a completely unrelated note, I've started remembering my dreams again, and I'm not sure if the precognition is accurate or not, and since the memory is so vague, I harbor doubts about recognition should the event occur. On the other hand, it's the sort of thing I like anyways, so I will make moves to induce it. The main thing being that a certain someone gets pestered tomorrow. Sorry, but I'll make it up to you somehow.

Wars have started this way...

Perhaps by people with armies at their backs, but through the same sort of actions.

And my most recent action that is thankfully unlikely to start a war, is that I have decided to withdraw from Northeastern University and move back to NOVA, despite GMU's admissions being slow (there are more colorful ways to describe it, but now is not the time) and leaving me in Limbo for a while longer. While there were still options for me up here, I felt that the benefits for me staying had exhausted themselves and extending my enrollment would be counter-productive. Maybe I'm just over thinking it, or want to use polysyllabic words because I speak less than 2 dozen words to other people on a daily basis without being forced onto a phone.

I wonder how, if at all, the workplace altered for my co-workers after my departure. My guess is that the trend that had shown it's head would continue, and by June I may have enjoyed the job. But what may happen, and what did happen are two wildly different beasts and that led to my actions now.


I do wonder though, would I be taking the same path if I had gained a co-op elsewhere? If I had gone to Disney, would I still want to leave NU? What if FI had actually cared about who they hired and I had had the opportunity to apply for a interning at MIT, which may have been something I could have enjoyed, or at least found satisfaction in, from the start?

Well, I can't say for sure how things would have changed. But I do know that the corrosive atmosphere at FI managed to corrupt my view of NU and Boston as a whole. Maybe with some time and distance I'll be able to think clearly about it. Then again, I'm unlikely to think about it at all anytime soon.

More packing to do, so future me who will look at this, try to remember. I also hope that it worked out ok.--Past(Present?) Me

Twilght or Dawn?

Nightfall or Daybreak?

Lousy metaphors aside, I'm entirely caught between a rock and a hard place. I think I'm safe enough spelling out my situation, because no one will see this any time soon, if at all.

Since the middle of January, when I started work at FI, I've been telemarketing. Not without gaps, but the largest percentage (easily a majority) has been cold calling lawyers. The largest minorities have been some policy processing (data entry basically. In other times, I may have been upset by it.) and filling in for the file clerk while she had a lung infection. Since I was hired as an assistant underwriter I thought my job would include data entry, paperwork, and generally being the office bitch.

I've been mentally prepared to quit for a long time now (Feb. 6 to be exact) but less than thrilled by the potential for things to go wrong. Because if I didn't get into GMU, then NEU would likely be upset with me for quitting. Since Monday when I had a meeting with the co-op coordinator for econ majors I've had fewer reasons against quitting. Since the university (or at least the econ coordinator) has become frustrated by the response he's gotten from my superiors at FI. As we are the last bunch of co-ops to head to FI, there would be no repercussions from the co-op department if I left.

Hopefully, around the 17th/18th NoVA gets a letter from GMU that says my transfer was accepted. Now, co-op wants me to find another position until the end of June (plausible, there are a few leads). I really just want to head home, try to find some part-time work that doesn't require sales (long-shot) or go back to the dot-com job at Safeway (I still object to the concept of 5 am).

The problem is that in the time it would likely take me to get a new position up in Boston, that would almost certainly overlap with when I predict to hear from GMU.

So what is my best option? Doing anything irrevocible as far as NEU is concerned without knowledge of is foolhardy at best and idiocy at worst.

Well, there is one piece of information I need and don't have. So I'm going to call her now. Maybe then I will know what to do.

Tormenting

I hope that GMU isn't going to look at server logs for their admissions site today; they'll see my IP address a LOT. But it's still down for their routine maintenance, so I still can't see. I would hope that when their site comes back up, I know what's going on...but since I have no clue when that is *exasperated sigh*

I have a plan for when (technically if) I get home. Praise be to Google. [tangent] So apparently "google" is flagged as incorrectly spelled while "Google" isn't. Would it be improper to capitalize it in the form of "Just google it"?[/tangent] How I'm getting home, that I'm less sure of. But none the less, one bridge to burn before I can reach that one.

Mildly Pointless Edit: The Site is back up. And I know no more than I did yesterday. Grah!